Stubborn love

Maybe I am a fool to still wish for something that you don’t want for me, you who know me and who loved me, whom I chose over the whole world.

Maybe I don’t deserve to wish or maybe am no longer loveable or likeable, or maybe am just another past for you that scars the definition of love.

Maybe I am supposed to change myself, not for you but for my own sake, for being able to survive.

Maybe I am all wrong – wrong in being so loyal and true to the depth of my feelings, the feelings based on which I exist and I breathe.

Maybe I need to know that it is wrong to not give up on someone, even though if that someone meant more than life and god to me, maybe give up Coz suddenly that someone shouldn’t mean anything to me because he thinks so.

Maybe I should surrender to the fake world and pretend that I don’t exist. There will be no me, as I will have to change.

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Been a while I had a real conversation with anyone and been my normal self. Life is taking too many turns at a time, glad that none is a u-turn so far. Constantly thriving between ‘whatever happens, happens for good’ and ‘when will this end?’

It is the striving without plan that tired us, not the execution for success!

These is a difference between a horse and a donkey, even when they act as mere carriers.

I wonder how I fall of track so many times and get this wisdom while in the process of getting up; but am never actually able to use it. I wonder if it’s the situations or if my approach towards life is laid back to another level! But one thing is for sure, every time I manage to get up, I have a satisfaction of becoming a better me – a person I would like myself to be and a person much more matured and humble!

While I am still under deep waters, I pray that I might be able to swim back to top again, with gratitude and thankfulness for this universe.

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Far from the mundane, close to nature.. when everything bothers but nothing matters, when only a dive can save you and doing unexpected/ unplanned and unknown can uprise you of your existence.

As is said, some uninvited troubles and pain walked into me again a few weeks ago! One fine day, in my healing process, this guy shows up looking all goofy and friendly! Haah! Life is beautiful and it’s all about perspectives of how to see what!

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Soulmate

Happy Monday!

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Here’s wishing for you a special species to be with,

Who can run for you miles while you try to shred your weight,

Who wouldn’t mind tonnes on sun when you want your tan,

Who would hold your hand harder when you shiver in pain,

Who would become a clown when you have hard days to put up that curve on your face,

Who would talk to your soul when you run out of words,

Who would surprise you by their patience when you lose it for yourself..

Wishing for you that special one who can be your everything for once and never gets weary of that feeling 👯‍♀️💗

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Chaos

He was chaos, and confused

She was messy

And fussy

Soon though

His chaos found –

comfort in her mess

And her mess found –

light in his darkness

Lost in him, she became the chaos

She got lost in his chaos

She loved his chaos

She fell –

into the depth of his darkness

Madly in love,

Too much, that until

She lost him

Just when –

She figured a way

To calm

Each wave of his storm

To save him from

His own chaos,

his every damn chaos

To find a light

In middle of night

To hold him safe

To pour him love

all her love…

Hopelessly lost

This was not the first time,

When I was hopelessly lost

Into the strange pull

Of your aura ..

Terribly confused, falling into you,

to the uncertainties,

to the innocence of our belongings,

to the purity of our hearts,

to the chats and the pats –

“We’re the STARS, we’re the BEST!”, you said,

to the “Let’s do it, do it together” tags,

to the depth of our understandings,

to the “always will be there in all” bliss,

to our unnamed ‘___ships’

to those unexplained needs,

to your listening ears and my sparkling dreams,

to the flowing confidence and happy streams,

to the badass dares & silent stares…

And,

This was not the last time,

when this strange girl,

got hopelessly lost & terribly confused!

You know what’s worse?

I think I may have fallen, madly,

a thousand times more,

for a thousand lives more! ♥️

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To my 3 am bestie

Every minute is so special so valuable, what happens to it when you don’t spend it in the thoughts of your most valuable love in your life?

You taught me to live, to value myself, to love- one more time, to believe in life, to have faith, to grow, to learn, to smile and most importantly- to not give up.

Here I am, at 4.01 am, unable to sleep, unable to stop. Spent last 4 hours thinking about you and having conversations with you in my mind.

Here I am, who wants to live, who values myself, who loves you again, who believes in life, who has faith, who is rising above, growing, who is smiling, and who is not giving up on you.

Here I am, wanting you to know me one more time, listen to me one more time, wanting you to believe in life, wanting you to value yourself, Love once again, to smile and to give me a chance one last time.

Here I am counting every breath, hoping so that before I finish counting, you would be here with me, understanding that people are not always as difficult as situations make them sometimes in life. People change, and sometimes they change for good. Sometimes, they deserve a chance.

Here I am, thinking of you, hoping that on your inside, you’re thinking about me too, secretly, truly and maybe for once, for once you will listen to me.

The spot

She chose her days and nights, her sunrises and sunsets,

she chose her friends and families..

Her wandering soul, always looking out, always curious,

always wanting to find something, something different..

In this world where she didn’t fit in, searching for something wild,

something that can help her to meet the odds, to accept the mess,

to breathe in the peace, to exhale all the love..

 

Her wandering soul, always looking out, always curious,

to find a right spot, hoping for it to be, in a similar soul like hers,

where she could pour in all her love, she could feel home,

she could walk barefoot on beaches with,

and hold hands, sit outdoors, witness sunsets.

 

A spot that nobody could claim back from her, a spot so special..

A spot belonging to her world, with no agreements needed,

A spot that could help her grow, open her wings, take tall steps,

A spot that would fly with her own spot,

off all the roads – the roads where they broke her.

 

Her wandering soul, always looking out, always curious,

wants this spot to enlighten her dark roads, to be the star of her dark sky..

cause she founds her one scar beautiful and sweet, a scar so special,

the pain so sweet, so regular, always shows up in her loneliness..

 

And still, her wandering soul, always looking out, always curious,

waits for that new spot, to heal her scars,

unaware. unaware, that the spot is herself!

It is her inner strength, the magical in her own soul,

the reason why she is a giver, why she shows up all the time,

It is her own spot that keeps her smiling,

that she witnesses more sunsets than sunrises,

that she falls more than flying, hurts more than healing..

and yet, her wandering soul, always looking out, always curious,

is looking out for that spot!

Mundane

A mundane Mumbai morning //

Looking out of the window while at work. Life is amazing, and then it’s awful. And then it’s amazing again. And in between the amazing and the awful it is ordinary and mundane and routine.

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Wish it is easy to breathe in the amazing, hold on through the awful, relax & exhale during the ordinary.

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I think that is just living. Heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary, mundane life.

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And it is beautiful in it’s broken moments, in all the parts of this living, in it’s own way

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Faces of love ❤️

All that is Love, sparkles ✨💗

// Nobody taught us Love when they taught about how to use our brains and how our hearts operate 💛

No way we knew that Love bleeds with pride, Love is not Love if there’s no fight, fight of life! ❣️ And the more we burn, the more we learn. We reach a phase where pain becomes a partner and you laugh, laugh out loud trying to find your old self.

But, Love is Love. It humbles, it is the only power that can heal what it destroys.🖤 I fall, I smile, I wonder, I wander, I lose, I gain, I cherish, I get pain, I die, I live, I relive, I wish, I surrender, I moan, I sing, I dance, I prank, I give, I fear, I rejoice, I reminisce, I manage, I realise.. Realise // I realise, love is the birth and Love is the death, it is the start, it is the journey, the destination till the end 💞

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Valentine is every day..

Met this beauty on the very day I fell in love with someone as beautiful inside out! 😍☺️ I must admit it to be the best moment, best day, Best laughter, Best walk ! 😆

Most times, the feelings come in most unexpected and gentle ways, we don’t know what happens why and we go with the flow.

And most times what we forget is how much efforts it takes to maintain and survive through the rains in order to see the rainbows.

How we express our love for our world, our life, our fellow travelers, and ourselves, all of it shape the quality of our experience.

From hopeless romantics to bitter old Scrooges, Love plays a role in how we lead our life.

It may be our rose-coloured glasses, or the spring in our step, or the reason we’ve sworn off this or that.

Our favourite love song, whether it is “Daydream believer” or “Love stinks” even tells you a lot and how much love affects us and how much of it we have in us.

One of the most important lessons in Love are that love is what we make of it, the more we give, the more we get; true love is falling in love with the same person over and over again.

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Also, I recently read ‘A Peaceful Warrior’ book, and one of the things it teaches is that “Those who are the hardest to love, need it the most.” 🤘🏻

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Here’s wishing a happy Valentine’s Day to everyone who believes in it, mostly to people who make each day of life as much worthy and loving as today! ❤️ .

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